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I used to wish I had the kind of college experience where I could focus only on school. But I’ve learned that my own path matters too. Learning keeps me active, grounded, and growing, reminding me that progress isn’t always about perfection but about persistence.

Sometimes I wonder if anything I create really matters. What’s the point of making something that could disappear? Yet in that question, I’ve found quiet meaning, to keep building, learning, and creating, even if no one sees it. Because maybe the point isn’t to change the world, but to find light and share it, no matter how small.

Pokémon Legends: Z-A isn’t a game about wandering far. It’s about the quiet moments within Lumiose City. The laughter of NPCs, the glow of Prism Tower, and the small comfort of sitting beside your Pokémon. In a time when life felt heavy, this world gave me light again.

Sometimes it’s not the lyrics or the artist, it’s something about the sound itself. For a few minutes, you just feel alive again. That rush is called frisson, the moment music slips past all your reasoning and just makes you feel. It’s not just sound, it’s connection. A reminder that your capacity to feel deeply is still there, even when it hides.

Ronnie Radke’s ego has fueled as much controversy as music. From a 2006 altercation that led to prison, to his 2012 arrests, reckless onstage behavior, a failed lawsuit against Anthony Fantano, and openly transphobic remarks, his career shows a pattern of ego over accountability. Now in his forties, Radke’s story is not one of redemption, but of repetition.

i’ve spent much of my life fading away, whether it was quietly leaving rooms, letting texts go unanswered, or watching connections dissolve before they began. this piece reflects on that pattern of disappearing, the weight it carries, and the small anchors that keep me tethered, like the presence of my cats.

Pearly Drops is a Finnish duo whose music blends dreamy vocals with polished, layered production. I first discovered them through their track Bloom for Me, a slow burn that did not fully sink in until years later. By the time I became obsessed with their 2023 record A Little Disaster, it was clear how unique they are. Pearly Drops creates music that feels both personal and cinematic, the kind of sound that deserves more attention.

autism doesn’t always look the way people expect. for me, it shows up in routines, challenges, and the little comforts I hold onto. i’ve learned how much being on the spectrum shapes everyday life, and how it’s made me who I am.

Jean Pormanove’s death during a livestream shows how quickly cruelty can be turned into entertainment. Despite warnings, platforms like Kick allowed abuse to continue while audiences paid to keep it going. His story is not only about one man but about the culture we are building online, and whether it will reward empathy or spectacle.

“my version of lonely” explores my personal encounters with missed connections, changing friendships, and the quiet ways we cope when we’re not sure we truly belong.