all essays.

Jean Pormanove’s death during a livestream shows how quickly cruelty can be turned into entertainment. Despite warnings, platforms like Kick allowed abuse to continue while audiences paid to keep it going. His story is not only about one man but about the culture we are building online, and whether it will reward empathy or spectacle.

“my version of lonely” explores my personal encounters with missed connections, changing friendships, and the quiet ways we cope when we’re not sure we truly belong.

discover the art of noticing in everyday life. this reflection explores how slowing down and paying attention to small moments can bring calm, clarity, and meaning.

a quiet reflection on the pressure to hold it all together. it’s about the cycle of expectations, exhaustion from emotional burnout, and the possibility that things don’t always have to stay this way.

a reflection on how culture shapes what we see as “normal.” from the left side of the road in london to familiar hills in israel, this piece explores the subtle ways travel shifts our perspective and how the world can feel both foreign and familiar at the same time.

medical debt can start in a moment, but follow you for years. this is about one hospital bill, how it shaped my life, and how the system punishes people trying to survive.

why do we hesitate, even when we're ready to grow? whether you're starting a business, pursuing a project, or making a big decision, trust matters. this post reflects on how fear and uncertainty can hold us back, and why the right tools, support, and honesty can make a real difference.

Johnny Yukon doesn’t create noise, he builds atmosphere. In this first entry of spotlight on chatpastel, I explore the cinematic, quietly emotional world he’s shaped, from SoundCloud roots to immersive concept releases.

enjoyment gets questioned the moment it stops producing results. the pressure to monetize everything reshapes how time, hobbies, and rest are judged, turning joy into something that has to earn its place.

Jonathan Joss was more than the voice behind iconic roles. He was a symbol of representation and resilience. His death, believed by many to be a hate crime, was both tragic and preventable. This post reflects on his life, the events leading up to his death, and the systems that failed him.